Ownership

It seems an anti-choice group is starting a campaign that says, I shit you not, hormonal birth control kills babies. I'm not going to bother reiterating how obviously wrong that is, but it did get me thinking about the whole birth control/abortion issue and how it relates to my relationship with Master.

Master and I live 24/7. We're lightweights compared to many people whose experiences I've read; I'm not banned from sitting on the furniture, we split chores pretty equally, I've never had to walk around all day with a buttplug in, etc. Despite our appearance of normalcy, however, ultimately I am Master's pet. So exactly how much does Master's authority extend?

I have an IUD, which is just as effective as sterilization - if not more so- so I'm basically guaranteed to be baby-free for the next five years unless I choose to have it removed. However, say that I'm just that fucking unlucky and somehow get pregnant anyway. Master and I have talked about this possibility before, and we agree that neither of us are ready for a kid and that it'd be best if I got an abortion. I don't think I'd have any qualms about it, because I would have tried my damnedest not to get pregnant, so it's not like I was being irresponsible or anything. Abortion is a last resort. Shit happens sometimes.

However, what if Master didn't want me to have an abortion?

This wouldn't make me immediately say, "Welp, better start shopping for baby clothes!" but it would make me pause. I'd be inclined to at least listen to his argument, not only because he's my Master but because the baby would his as much as mine. I dunno. If I thought Master really believed it would be best to keep the baby, I might acquiesce. This feels like one of those decisions that can only be made when it actually needs to be made, not when I'm playing "what-if" at two in the morning because I'm bored.

What about the converse, if I wanted to keep the baby and Master didn't? That seems trickier for some reason. It feels... almost manipulative of me to do that. Like those girls who get pregnant because they think it'll make their boyfriend stay with that. I don't want to be manipulative, even though I'm not worried about Master leaving me. Though, in theory, Master could just throw me out and refuse to have anything to do with it. Would he? I like to think not.

Either way, a disagreement over something like this could possibly end our relationship. Because that's really the bottom line. If there is something I simply cannot submit to him about and he is unwilling to compromise about, then I can just leave. There is always that option. Like abortion, it's a last resort. It's tough shit.

I'm so glad Master and I agree on the big stuff.