Sunday, September 18, 2011

"From Vista to XP"

Master and I have downgraded our relationship.

Basically, we're not primary partners anymore. But we don't have "replacement" primaries either. Just secondaries all around.

I'm still trying to adjust to this; I'm not going to lie, I didn't exactly want it to happen. I'm not yet comfortable with how little input I have in his outside relationships (e.g. no more veto power), even though it also means I have much more freedom.

At least he's still my Master, and I'm still his only kitten. I'm glad we still have that.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Gratitude

Lately I've had a hard time keeping positive about my relationship with Master; all I can think about is how far apart we are, all the things that we can't do together because we live in different states, all the people that he's with that aren't me.

So, to help cheer me up, here is a list of things that I'm grateful for in my relationship with him:
  1. I am grateful that I can use modern technology to see his face even when we're hundreds of miles away, or to chat with him even when we're at work.
  2. I am grateful that my clutter won't make him frustrated because he's not here to see it.
  3. I am grateful that I can own cats - he'd never allow it if we lived together.
  4. I am grateful that we're only three hours apart instead of five, or eight.
  5. I am grateful that I got to spend one night in his arms this past weekend.
  6. I am grateful that I got to have sex with him once this past weekend.
  7. I am grateful that he is willing to listen to me when I'm upset.
  8. I am grateful that he is willing to work with me to help me feel more secure.
  9. I am grateful that he loves me.
  10. I am grateful that he wants to make our relationship work.