Sunday, September 27, 2009


I'm so glad that Master and I have talked about living together after I graduate. It gives me something to look forward to, and it also gives me a sense of security regarding the future. I don't know what kind of job I'm going to have (if I do get a job; one never knows in this economy) or what my house/apartment will be like or anything like that, but I know what city I'm going to (at first, at least; we may move depending on what kind of jobs there are), and I know Master will be there - constant and supportive.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Women's work

I visited Master this weekend, and as we walked down the sidewalk we noticed an unopened bottle of Corona. "You know, the Corona beer company is the only one owned by a woman," Dan said.

"That's really interesting because beer brewing used to be a female-dominated business," I replied, recalling a recent history lecture.

"What? When?"

"During the middle ages. It was one of the few ways a woman could own her own business. It was said - and there's some scientific evidence to back it up, but it's kinda eeeeh - that women are better at discerning temperature, and temperature control is really important during the fermenting process."

"Have you ever thought about brewing beer?"

I shrugged. "I've thought about making dandelion wine and the like, but not beer. I thought it'd be too difficult."

"I think you'd be really good at it," Master said enthusiastically. "I mean, you like science, you like chemistry - "

"And I like beer," I finished with a laugh.

"What if I got you a microbrewing kit? Would you like that?"

"Yeah, I would."

I've been thinking about the idea of femininity as a subculture. Like, there are activities that women have traditionally participated in, stories we've passed to one another, that kind of thing. How much of this culture should be cherished and carried on, and how much should be discarded as patriarchal baggage? How can we differentiate the two?

If I take up brewing beer because it used to be a feminine endeavor, am I being empowering? I want to say yes because the idea of anything beer-related being feminine has fallen far from society's consciousness. Also, beer-brewing used to be an avenue of power for women; I'd like to think I'm honoring those women who used brewing as a way to get some measure of control over their lives in a world that was far unfriendlier than the present day's.

Sunday, September 13, 2009


I'm going down to visit Master next Friday. In order to spend a decent amount of time with him, I'm leaving early Friday, which means skipping class. The question is... should I let my profs know I'm going to be gone, or just... not show up? Decisions...

Also, random observation of the day: the dreams that turn me on the most are the ones where I give blow jobs. More so than the ones were I have sex. Which, now that I think about it, are much less frequent.

Friday, September 4, 2009


I find one way to draw attention away from my collars, when I'm going to be in situations where I want to be a little more subtle, is (paradoxically) to wear a necklace or two with it.By pairing my collar with a necklace or two, the whole thing blends together and the collar itself stands out less.

My particular favorite combo is my white leather collar with a replica of the One Ring on a silver chain. :)

Okay, so it's not exactly "subtle," but punk rockers draw less attention than BDSMers.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

There and back again

Master came, and we had fun.

I was spanked, dominated, fucked for the first time in months. It was wonderful. We didn't even use any of the toys (other than my food dish), though I kind of wish we had. I just never thought to ask in the heat of the moment. And we needed to be careful of making too much noise much of the time.

We cuddled and cuddled and cuddled. I slept better than I have in weeks when I was next to him.

In a few weeks I'm going down to see him. Just a few weeks - not months, like it was last time.

I think we can do this.