Tuesday, March 20, 2012


I recently got my hair cut. Whereas before it was about chin-length, it's now in a pixie cut - no more than a couple inches.

Whereas I wear the same types of clothing that I did before - relatively androgynous cargo-shorts-and-tee-shirt getup - I seem to draw stares and attention that I didn't when my hair was longer. I think it's because my old hair length was enough to put me in the "acceptably feminine" category. Now I've strayed "too far" into butch territory; I'm suddenly, visibly queer.

It's an interesting reminder of how much gender and sexuality is still policed in our society; while I haven't actually been accosted, I can feel the stares of people - particularly men - on me when I go about my business. I don't think they know what to make of me. And, being the rebellious person that I am, it makes me want to push those gender boundaries even more. I'll give you something to stare at, I think.

I feel a little more at home in queer spaces, too. Less like an impostor; more like I belong there. I get knowing smiles from other visibly queer women when I pass them. Too bad I still don't know how to approach ladies. >.<

It's interesting how such a small, superficial thing can have such a large social impact.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Shibari wish list

Master and I bought (one of?) Midori's books on shibari for Valentine's day, and I've been looking around to see what kind of knots I'd like to try the next time we're together.

The first one I like is this one. The repetitive pattern of the knots up her arms is really cool, and I'm intrigued by the hint that her arms are tied both to her chest harness and to her thighs. Seems like an interesting predicament! Also, Wonder Woman. Hot.

The second one I'd like to try is this one, though it's probably beyond Master's and my ken. It just looks so... relaxing. Like a hammock or a porch swing.

Finally, I'm really intrigued by this one. Though it looks really simple, it also looks like it'd feel really nice; your arms are braced against this wooden pole, your legs bound, no sight, a gag keeping you from speaking... mmmm. That particular leg position might make it more difficult for Master to fuck me, but he could still torment my pussy with his hands or with toys. :3 And if one simply removes the gag, one has easy access to a blowjob!