Monday, December 21, 2009


Master was hit by a car while riding his bike a week ago. He's been in the hospital ever since.

He's definitely getting better - he should leave the ICU in the next day or two - but it's so hard sometimes. I feel so lost and alone and helpless. I just want him to get better.

Please pray, chant, cast magick, whatever it is you do.

Thursday, December 10, 2009


In Master's absence I've been tentatively exploring my dominant side a bit more. I still have a hard time feeling truly comfortable expressing dominance - especially towards men (damn our patriarchal society!) - but I've been getting a feel for what kind of dominance turns me on.

Enter Male Submission Art. So many pretty men! :D The blog-keeper's commentary on each post is nice, too. From what I gather he's a submissive man himself, and I don't think I've read/followed many blogs that feature male subs. While theoretically that shouldn't make a difference - a sub is a sub - the fact is that our gendered society makes the experience of submission different for men and women, I think. Or at least it's different from my perspective.

Because men are expected to dominate and women are expected to submit, the most obvious difference is that male submission has an element of transgression beyond what female submission has. Of course, this doesn't mean that female submission is bad for reifying the gender binary or whatever; however, it does mean we have to approach it and process it differently.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

'Tis the season!

Seems Fetlife is doing a contest where you can enter to win one of three prizes of your choosing (out of many, many options). Me likey!

I chose the impact play kit, the Medusa flogger, and a silk waist cincher. ^_^

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Delicious sky-pie :D

I was talking to Master about browsing some BDSM sites and lusting over all these cool toys I can never have because they're too expensive. Then he told me to pick one thing that I'd like more than anything else, even though it's a total pie-in-the-sky deal. SO, without further ado, my totally-never-gonna-happen kinky wish list. (They all come from one website because that happened to be the site I was browsing when I was talking to Master.)

1) The Slave Driver Sex Machine

2) Vibrating Pleasure Periscope

3) Deerskin Flogger

On a more realistic note, I think it'd be fun to invest in a Wartenberg pinwheel. I could probably find one for a reasonable price. Maybe it'll be an anniversary present to Master. ^_^

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Tentative foray

I've never written smut before, despite being an avid writer, because I always feel awkward about it. The words sound so funny and, I always psych myself out before I even start trying; the fact that I hadn't had any firsthand experience until relatively recently didn't help much.

But! I want to expand my writing abilities, and I think part of that is learning how to write smut. I already have some experience from cybering/phone-sexing with Master. Plus, I have a plot bunny (for once) of the smutty variety - and it's steampunky, to boot. (Of course it is.) So I'm going to try my hand at the sexy writing and post my attempt here. Let's see what happens.