I've decided not to be sexual with anyone before I can be with Master once more. It just feels... wrong to be with someone else when Master isn't well yet.
Master pointed out it may be some time before he can be intimate again. I don't mind. He can still dominate me - he still has that je ne sais quoi that leaves me breathless, even when we're using instant messanging. As long as we can do that, I'll be satisfied.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Monday, January 4, 2010
A long road ahead
Master's on his way to a full recovery, thank God/dess.
Unfortunately, because of outside forces (school, family) I can't be there in person for his entire journey. And it's eating me up inside. :(
Thank goodness for modern technology, though - we're still able to keep in touch every day, even though he's still in the hospital.
And he's still able to exert his Masterly influence - he just chastised me for not updating on schedule! XD
Hopefully his neck injury won't prove a permanent hindrance to our play; even if it does have lasting effects, we'll work around it.
They say pets have a positive effect on people's health and can speed the healing process; I wonder if the same holds true for human pets?
Unfortunately, because of outside forces (school, family) I can't be there in person for his entire journey. And it's eating me up inside. :(
Thank goodness for modern technology, though - we're still able to keep in touch every day, even though he's still in the hospital.
And he's still able to exert his Masterly influence - he just chastised me for not updating on schedule! XD
Hopefully his neck injury won't prove a permanent hindrance to our play; even if it does have lasting effects, we'll work around it.
They say pets have a positive effect on people's health and can speed the healing process; I wonder if the same holds true for human pets?
Monday, December 21, 2009
Crisis
Master was hit by a car while riding his bike a week ago. He's been in the hospital ever since.
He's definitely getting better - he should leave the ICU in the next day or two - but it's so hard sometimes. I feel so lost and alone and helpless. I just want him to get better.
Please pray, chant, cast magick, whatever it is you do.
He's definitely getting better - he should leave the ICU in the next day or two - but it's so hard sometimes. I feel so lost and alone and helpless. I just want him to get better.
Please pray, chant, cast magick, whatever it is you do.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Yum!
In Master's absence I've been tentatively exploring my dominant side a bit more. I still have a hard time feeling truly comfortable expressing dominance - especially towards men (damn our patriarchal society!) - but I've been getting a feel for what kind of dominance turns me on.
Enter Male Submission Art. So many pretty men! :D The blog-keeper's commentary on each post is nice, too. From what I gather he's a submissive man himself, and I don't think I've read/followed many blogs that feature male subs. While theoretically that shouldn't make a difference - a sub is a sub - the fact is that our gendered society makes the experience of submission different for men and women, I think. Or at least it's different from my perspective.
Because men are expected to dominate and women are expected to submit, the most obvious difference is that male submission has an element of transgression beyond what female submission has. Of course, this doesn't mean that female submission is bad for reifying the gender binary or whatever; however, it does mean we have to approach it and process it differently.
Enter Male Submission Art. So many pretty men! :D The blog-keeper's commentary on each post is nice, too. From what I gather he's a submissive man himself, and I don't think I've read/followed many blogs that feature male subs. While theoretically that shouldn't make a difference - a sub is a sub - the fact is that our gendered society makes the experience of submission different for men and women, I think. Or at least it's different from my perspective.
Because men are expected to dominate and women are expected to submit, the most obvious difference is that male submission has an element of transgression beyond what female submission has. Of course, this doesn't mean that female submission is bad for reifying the gender binary or whatever; however, it does mean we have to approach it and process it differently.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
'Tis the season!
Seems Fetlife is doing a contest where you can enter to win one of three prizes of your choosing (out of many, many options). Me likey!
I chose the impact play kit, the Medusa flogger, and a silk waist cincher. ^_^
I chose the impact play kit, the Medusa flogger, and a silk waist cincher. ^_^
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Delicious sky-pie :D
I was talking to Master about browsing some BDSM sites and lusting over all these cool toys I can never have because they're too expensive. Then he told me to pick one thing that I'd like more than anything else, even though it's a total pie-in-the-sky deal. SO, without further ado, my totally-never-gonna-happen kinky wish list. (They all come from one website because that happened to be the site I was browsing when I was talking to Master.)
1) The Slave Driver Sex Machine
2) Vibrating Pleasure Periscope
3) Deerskin Flogger
On a more realistic note, I think it'd be fun to invest in a Wartenberg pinwheel. I could probably find one for a reasonable price. Maybe it'll be an anniversary present to Master. ^_^
1) The Slave Driver Sex Machine
2) Vibrating Pleasure Periscope
3) Deerskin Flogger
On a more realistic note, I think it'd be fun to invest in a Wartenberg pinwheel. I could probably find one for a reasonable price. Maybe it'll be an anniversary present to Master. ^_^
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Tentative foray
I've never written smut before, despite being an avid writer, because I always feel awkward about it. The words sound so funny and, I always psych myself out before I even start trying; the fact that I hadn't had any firsthand experience until relatively recently didn't help much.
But! I want to expand my writing abilities, and I think part of that is learning how to write smut. I already have some experience from cybering/phone-sexing with Master. Plus, I have a plot bunny (for once) of the smutty variety - and it's steampunky, to boot. (Of course it is.) So I'm going to try my hand at the sexy writing and post my attempt here. Let's see what happens.
But! I want to expand my writing abilities, and I think part of that is learning how to write smut. I already have some experience from cybering/phone-sexing with Master. Plus, I have a plot bunny (for once) of the smutty variety - and it's steampunky, to boot. (Of course it is.) So I'm going to try my hand at the sexy writing and post my attempt here. Let's see what happens.
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